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This is something quick I decided to do for this-day-that-cannot-be-named-for-I-am-an-idiot. Yes, that is me in the photo.

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To be honest, I almost was one of those kids. About a couple years ago, I wasn't entirely the all-around-happy guy I am today. I was suicidal. I was bullied at school because of my ideals and home didn't help much. At that time, my family was in a inter-family arguement that was draging on for years. One day, I just got sick of it all. I'm usually the first one home in the afternoon. I took a meat carving knife into my room. For the next two hours I sat there, with the blade against my neck. I'm serious. The sharp edge of the blade was against my neck. Close to the two hour mark, I started thinking about what I was doing. I thought about the pain that would disappear. I thought about the rest I could finally have. I also thought of my family, friends, and my new girlfriend. Then I realized how selfish I was being. My suicide would've caused so much pain in them. It also would've torn Mother apart. Unlike most guys, my mother is my most important family member to me, so naturally I was worried about what would happen if I did it. At 5:15 my mother arrived home, and I dropped the knife and went to hug her, tears streaming down my face. I remember fibbing about what just happened, so that I wouldn't worry her. Ever since, I've adopted a humanitarian side to my personality. And here I am today.
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AnnikaDoll Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm glad things worked out :3
And nice work on the picture. Purple really makes it pop [to me, at least, haha]./
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Egnoramus Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2010  Student Digital Artist
i am too.

thanks. appareantly i'm good at photomanipulation :D
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Know-Kname Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2010
wow, im glad you didnt and im glad you made things better.
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Egnoramus Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2010  Student Digital Artist
same here. :)
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Daemon-Jaeger Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2010  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
:hug:
I'm not really sure what to say...I guess it's never a simple thing, huh? I don't really know you or what the situation was, but I can say that you're strong, that's for sure.
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Egnoramus Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2010  Student Digital Artist
wow. i've never gotten that from anybody before. thanks :D
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Daemon-Jaeger Featured By Owner Oct 23, 2010  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Really? Hm...well, I guess I've seen a few close encounters, so I've seen (and personally felt) how hard it is to stay. Especially in your case, it sounds like you not only held on to life but turned around, which is difficult at the least.
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Egnoramus Featured By Owner Oct 23, 2010  Student Digital Artist
well. i wouldn't say i completely turned around. instead of suicide, i've turned into a masochist. every punishment is welcome to me.
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Daemon-Jaeger Featured By Owner Oct 23, 2010  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Ah...I don't think I know anyone who is a masochist. At least, not that I know of.
It sucks either way...
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Egnoramus Featured By Owner Oct 23, 2010  Student Digital Artist
meh. if you think about it, you get pleasure out of pain and punishment. so.. punishment is irrelivant. :D
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Daemon-Jaeger Featured By Owner Oct 23, 2010  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
That's true...I personally wouldn't go so far as to say that I'd enjoy punishment, but there's a side to me that definitely thinks that I deserve to be browbeaten to the floor.
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Egnoramus Featured By Owner Oct 24, 2010  Student Digital Artist
maybe i put it a little blunt. lol
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SirHavin Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2010  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Oh, yeah...

One more thing.

Purple. Is. Freakin'. Amazing. 8DD

That is all. =^^=
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Egnoramus Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2010  Student Digital Artist
nice XD
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SirHavin Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2010  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
x3 It's my favorite color. Looks amazing with black. x3
Black is also a favorite color. (blink) Looks amazing with anything, really.

But anyway... xD
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Egnoramus Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2010  Student Digital Artist
nice
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SirHavin Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2010  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
That's a ... pretty dark and relatable story.

I just feel I should say where you lack this overly amazing skill that everyone here on deviant art seems to display, you put your heart into your pieces and it shows.
Even though we don't really know each other all that well, I'm proud of you, man. 'Cause I've been there, too.
I can't really count all the times in my life that I've considered ending it all. I just wanted to go to my home in the sky and be done with it. But the thought, the knowing of the absolute agony it would unleash on those who love me always stopped those thoughts then and there.

Heh.
You should feel honored. This isn't something I discuss lightly. x33

Anyway. Yeah.
Hope I wasn't rambling or being too sappy back there. >>;

God bless, man.
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Egnoramus Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2010  Student Digital Artist
thanks man. :)
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SirHavin Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2010  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
^^ No problem.
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