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Sony Ericsson
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Aug 3, 2010, 6:23:37 PM
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Scars by Egnoramus Scars by Egnoramus
This is something quick I decided to do for this-day-that-cannot-be-named-for-I-am-an-idiot. Yes, that is me in the photo.

***STORYTIME***
To be honest, I almost was one of those kids. About a couple years ago, I wasn't entirely the all-around-happy guy I am today. I was suicidal. I was bullied at school because of my ideals and home didn't help much. At that time, my family was in a inter-family arguement that was draging on for years. One day, I just got sick of it all. I'm usually the first one home in the afternoon. I took a meat carving knife into my room. For the next two hours I sat there, with the blade against my neck. I'm serious. The sharp edge of the blade was against my neck. Close to the two hour mark, I started thinking about what I was doing. I thought about the pain that would disappear. I thought about the rest I could finally have. I also thought of my family, friends, and my new girlfriend. Then I realized how selfish I was being. My suicide would've caused so much pain in them. It also would've torn Mother apart. Unlike most guys, my mother is my most important family member to me, so naturally I was worried about what would happen if I did it. At 5:15 my mother arrived home, and I dropped the knife and went to hug her, tears streaming down my face. I remember fibbing about what just happened, so that I wouldn't worry her. Ever since, I've adopted a humanitarian side to my personality. And here I am today.
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AnnikaDoll Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2010  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm glad things worked out :3
And nice work on the picture. Purple really makes it pop [to me, at least, haha]./
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Egnoramus Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2010  Student Digital Artist
i am too.

thanks. appareantly i'm good at photomanipulation :D
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Know-Kname Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2010
wow, im glad you didnt and im glad you made things better.
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Egnoramus Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2010  Student Digital Artist
same here. :)
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Daemon-Jaeger Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2010  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
:hug:
I'm not really sure what to say...I guess it's never a simple thing, huh? I don't really know you or what the situation was, but I can say that you're strong, that's for sure.
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Egnoramus Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2010  Student Digital Artist
wow. i've never gotten that from anybody before. thanks :D
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Daemon-Jaeger Featured By Owner Oct 23, 2010  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Really? Hm...well, I guess I've seen a few close encounters, so I've seen (and personally felt) how hard it is to stay. Especially in your case, it sounds like you not only held on to life but turned around, which is difficult at the least.
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Egnoramus Featured By Owner Oct 23, 2010  Student Digital Artist
well. i wouldn't say i completely turned around. instead of suicide, i've turned into a masochist. every punishment is welcome to me.
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Daemon-Jaeger Featured By Owner Oct 23, 2010  Hobbyist Artisan Crafter
Ah...I don't think I know anyone who is a masochist. At least, not that I know of.
It sucks either way...
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Egnoramus Featured By Owner Oct 23, 2010  Student Digital Artist
meh. if you think about it, you get pleasure out of pain and punishment. so.. punishment is irrelivant. :D
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